Since I missed Monday Musings today, I thought I’d add it today’s whimsical thoughts, as I feel a bit melancholy today…
I don’t feel bad, and I’m not necessarily sad. I just feel a bit more somber than most days.
I suppose, it’s mostly because today is my grandfather’s 94th birthday. But he’s not here to celebrate. He’s in heaven.
We said goodbye to him 18 years ago (on Oct. 6); so, today is not a new day or even a surprise from what it has been for many years now.
Yet, I always miss him on these days. My life was changed that day, and as much as I’m so thankful I’ll see him again one day on the other side, it doesn’t change the fact.
I miss him deeply. And today, I’ve had a thought time shaking the invading blues.
The sun is shining brightly, the breeze is blowing slightly, and it’s a warm 79 degrees here in Georgia. My life is blessed, and I really cannot complain.
In fact, I am overly blessed, and he’d never want me to be sad, even in his absence. So, I’ll put a smile on my face until I feel it down deep in my soul.
For he is no longer in pain. He is no longer suffering. He is rejoicing in our eternal home, and I will see him again.
So, as my heart continues to heal, as it does with time, memories and purpose, I will lift my hands today and worship my King.
For He is worthy of that worship, and it changes me in the midst of my obedience.
…And it makes that smile sink a little deeper to the depths of my being to bring sunlight through the rain.
“Why, my soul, are you downcast?
Why so disturbed within me?
Put your hope in God,
for I will yet praise him,
my Savior and my God.”Psalm 42:11
“The Lord is my strength and my shield;
my heart trusts in him, and he helps me.
My heart leaps for joy,
and with my song I praise him.”Psalm 28:7